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were "push-overs" and it wasn't long before there was a new re spect for me from the fellows on the campus. I never actually enjoyed these sex relations to the extent that other men claim they do--where they will pay substantial sums of money for sex- play.

I had missed several Saturdays spent as Anita as a result of these dates and felt desperate. I borrowed the money from my Aunt and ordered a wig made for me. When I got it it was superb and I was able to continue my Saturday outings. From then on, by keeping my nails at a medium length, I could become girl easily and yet not be obviously effeminate as a male. That summer I purchased my second wig in order to alternate them During the summer vacation, after my second year of college, I met and dated a fellow who wąs the nicest boy I ever met. We dated constantly and in August 1935 we became engaged (See photo lated 1935) To this day I can't figure why I accepted his ring xcept that I wanted to be "all woman" When I told my Mother nd Aunt they got angry at my stupidity and even my aunt demanded I discontinue my impersonation. I realized how right they were however I promised them that in 3 weeks the summer would be over and I would then "bury" Anita, but to give me these three weeks I stayed engaged for the remaining three weeks, after which I broke it off by telling him I loved someone else. After return ng to the city and school my Aunt allowed me to dress in her apartment providing I didn t go out which I did every Saturday and Sunday. I knew it was all over anyway, as I was starting to get a beard and each time I shaved it seemed to come back faster and more bristly. In March of 1936 I packed away all the clothes and definitely concluded that Anita was gone forever.

I graduated from college and started work and was success- ful in obtaining a fairly good position in another city. For some peculiar reason I cannot fathom (leading a happy life as a normal young man dating, etc.) I was walking down the street in the city s shopping section when I passed a dress shop that had an unusually pretty dress in the window on sale. I went in asked for that dress and purchased it. I took it back to my apartment and just sat there for a while looking at it.

Then,